Thursday, May 10, 2012

YOGO-or in my case twice a year

Written for the GV newsletter...
I admit when the day finally came I was pretty stressed out to be herding my fourth group of eager teenagers through four airports and two sets of customs. But as the last supply drive box was loaded on top of the fancy red chicken bus, I breathed a sigh of relief. We had finally made it to Guatemala. From here the road was more or less familiar.

I was armed with a minute by minute itinerary of everything we would do over the next 15 days as well as a map of San Miguel Escobar denoting every homestay family. Having accompanied previous groups, I felt comfortable and confident that together with the Guatemalan Staff we would be able to provide the robust, transformative experience we promised during all those school presentations and Info Nights last September.

And in retrospect I believe we were able to do just that, but as usual things did not go exactly as I imagined. I keep trying to find the way to articulate what was so different about this trip. I hesitate to compare it to my previous trips because though we did many of the same activities, such as visiting the dump and volunteering on our work teams, the trip (well really the entire program) is more than its components, but rather something that is co-created by its participants. And the Spring Program participants were a unique and beautiful blend of diverse personalities and experiences who chose to create something very special.

There are so many stories, so many small victories and major revelations that I find it difficult to explain. I could tell you about Sam, a kid I once thought of as shy, infecting the entire group with the YOGO (you only Guatemala once) philosophy and how this pushed everyone to try new things. I could tell you about gorging on cake and ice cream with Annie and Rita during the Antigua tour or about how Mary-Anne always sang and lead her work team in games or how Stacey spoke so beautifully about her experience in the Hospital that I almost cried. Or I could tell you about trading poems with Devin and Nava or about Lupe who was so eager to translate that she sometimes translated Spanish to Spanish or English to English or Steve who makes the funniest faces ever and still can never seem to get all the way through Redemption Song on the guitar. But they are all just pieces that add up to create something greater than their sum.

Throughout the trip, the Spring participants created and re-created community. They worked hard and played harder. They drew their Chapin counterparts into the fold. They held one another accountable for participating in discussions. They passed each other Kleenex and held hands with people who were feeling homesick or overwhelmed by something they had learned or experienced. Work teams created get well soon cards for people with upset stomachs. There was an attitude of “what can I do to make this a great trip?”

Chris Fontana always says that it is each person’s responsibility to make sure that everyone else “gets it”. And that is exactly what this group did. My experience is that this was a trip filled with compassion, honesty, humility, a great deal of reflection, new found friendships, learning, and fun. It was a trip that really connected me in a new way to our mission, because I returned to the States feeling more empowered and privileged to have gotten to know such a special group of people. I came back really feeling like not only did they “get it”, but that I did too.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Written at the Houston Airport that like most airports I've ever been it is home to a multitude of atrocities that erode our freedom daily. Yes, it's a familiar diatribe...and I repeat it because it is still true.

For Your Safety
Stars and stripes wave over me,
but every time I start to believe in freedom
I go to the airport and get a reality check.
Here, for my safety and yours,
I am "temporarily" stripped of
my shoes, my laptop, my belt, my hoodie, and
my civil liberties.
At least I get my shoes back
after someone somewhere has seen me naked
and deemed me worthy of an additional pat down
to make sure my ass
is still my ass
and not a weapon of mass destruction.
And I am allowed to reassemble my possessions
and proceed to my gate
with the illusion of safety
tucked into the place where my presumption of freedom
once was.
I contemplate the shiny blue exterior of my passport
and question my citizenship
the same way I question
how I am always
"randomly selected"
to undergo more detailed screening
for my safety,
and the safety of my fellow passengers
but I do not feel safer
knowing that for any reason
I can be escorted to that special white walled room
behind the curtain
that doesn't lead to Oz.
I do not feel safer
when the other "randomly selected" passengers
are a collective image of everything we are told
to be afraid of:
brown people
black people
turbans
and accents that don't have a Southern Twang
I do not feel safer
to have compromised my freedom
to placate the fear of my fellow countrymen
that we will not spared from paying for the crimes we have committed
that no one wants to talk about.
That we might one day have to pay
the true price of gas
which will far exceed $5 a gallon
because it will include the reparations
for each human life our military has taken
for our safety.
I question my citizenship
with the knowledge that this choice,
these choices that I never made
the decisions I did not oppose vehemently enough
define me.
I question my citizenship
with the understanding  that
with the priviledge of this passport
I am complicit.
Both agent and target
and I am certainly
not any safer
wrapped in the banner
of my country.